March 2nd, 2003

12:09 am
note: give a dollar to the friendly homeless….

today was quite good. i woke up around 3 or 4 and took a shower. then talk to billy and kim. kim picked me up and we met up with nadia and brad at the 59 diner. i ordered a grilled cheese and i dont think i liked it but the french fries were quite good. i shouldve gotten the chili pie like i wanted. kim said it was gross though. then we left and went to soundwaves and i bought a limited pressing of 2000 of a Swing Kids picture disc. oh yeah it rules. and i gave a friendly bum guy 3 bucks. it gave me a good feeling. cause the way i see it. even if hes lying and going to go buy crack or booze with it makes him happy that little time. or hopefully hes buying food and happy and safe longer. other than those few things i did nothing but sit and listen to records for hours by myself. hopefully jordan isnt sick anymore it makes me sad when shes sick. i miss her and will maybe see her tomorrow. oh-yeah my brother is coming up here later where i work to see me when he gets to houston so rock n effin roll to that. well im out!!!
Current Mood:  chipper
Current Music: Swing Kids, Meadowlark, Los Crudos, Boy Wonder, medley

 

This was rarity of sorts. I hardly ever had times in Houston without the usual people involved. Kim and I had just became friends at this point and she had a car.  That was nice and she’d pick me up and we would do things in Houston. In retrospect,  I should’ve had more times like that in Houston. In a way,  it was like I never lived there because I was so concerned with Angleton. I don’t regret it at all really, but wish my heart was where I was rather than a different town. Once again I was not happy with my food. No wonder I became a cook, I didn’t like food. I did score some choice records at Soundwaves though.

 

05:32 am
“We can exist in ambiguity, but it means the deepest loneliness.”

Today i think im going to a show with kim and everyone. about 1-ish but im not 100% sure. anyways thats it for now.
Current Mood:  confused
Current Music: Boy Wonder

 

No sure was show this is. A matinée for sure but I don’t remember who played.

 

11:56 pm
gag……………………………..blurp……………………..

today was my first day with my brother, since he came home on leave. and i have to say it sucked completely. he woke me up around 12:00 i think. and blew smoke in my face to wake me up so that was not cool. even though i smoke thats still not the most pleasant way to wake up. then i was supposed to go to a show with kim, but i had to cancel cause my dad wanted my brother and i to go to his house. and my brother didnt get ready till like 4:30 so i couldve went to show and got back and he still wouldnt have been ready cause even though he was ready at 4:4o we didnt leave till 5. and it was weird being with him and my dad again. but thats long time issues between the three of us. i wont get into that. so anyways during all that time i talked to jordan that was nice, its rare we get to talk during the days. i need a bad ass alarm clock. so i can wake up. but anyway we went to my dads and my dad cooked bb-Q. that was nice of him. after that we went to the mall and hung with jordan and i gave her the money i had of hers. 75 bizzzzones. we hang for about 30 minutes there even though shes telling everyone 5 so i dont know. maybe 20 or something i know it was longer than 5. but oh-well we are lost. but yeah i dont think i had a very good day, but no where near bad!!!

 

Well, this one is pretty much the same. I don’t really have anything to add to this. It is really funny to think that in the time away from a person you care for things would change. That is never the story of my family. Well it was for my dad towards the end. He made a dramatic change and things were better between us in the long times apart. William and my mom however never change. I will always be that weird kid in their minds. I’ll always have those weird ideas and drug habits (they either make-up when I’m not doing drugs or the real ones they never suspect). Family, what can you do about them?

mood: aggravated at my brother….he yelled at me like 5 times today!

 

Tags: 59 diner, billy, boy wonder, brad, brother, class guilt, dad, houston, jordan, kim, los crudos, mall, meadowlark, mom, nadia, soundwaves, swing kids, william